time flies, flies as fast as it can be.
sighs.
i hate time to fly so darn quickly, especially when time can never be reversed.
ohwells.
all we can do is to treasure every single second of our life then.
oh wth am i crapping ?!
blahblah.
tmr, 1912204, marks the last day of any tabletennis competition for year 2004.
it seems sad ?
i dont knw.
honestly, i dont exactly feel much abt competitions for i dint and dont even perform well in them.
i guess, it's time tht i dont even enter a single competition at all and just be a damned nerd, stufying at home and all.
ohwells.
AS IF i can take such a nerdy life.
upon being defeated, it sucks, definitely.
sucks, but still, you've got to accept it graciously ?
oh, to accept it graciously, it sucks even more !
ahhhhh !
i guess, im just crapping her but i like to crap so mind me.
hahah.
i was having dinner just now when my mind was doddling ard everywhere.
hahah.
i was thinking of this and tht.
wht are the these and tht(s) ?
well, just merely brooding over the competition just now.
i feel totally regretful of my terrible attitude just now.
i should have played preperly for EVERY single point.
etc and etc.
ohwells.
but wht's the shit point in saying all these now ?
totally NO point so i might as well be chill abt it and yea.
to go or not to go ?
this is the question tht i've been poundering over since this early afternoon.
the question has soon somehow be answered when i found out something..
of cos, this something was a very very disappointing one.
it caused me to be super sad, i must say.
i mean, to think i anticipated so long for it ?
yeayea..
BUT there's always a twist to everything !
hahah.
i mean, i saw blahblah !
i was happy (: , duh !
though it was only like a few glances and only short seconds of it, i was contented.
i asked blahblah if blahblah was going but it dint answer my question cos it was - maybe, dont knw..
well well.
we shall see.
and to go or not, i got to find someone to go with me, right ?
hahah.
anyway, back to my life lah.
haha.
those above seem so wierd typed out by me but yea, tht's how i feel.
went out for dinner right after i came home from toapayoh.
went to lemongrass at east coast cos dint wna go down to orchard as the traffic was a killer.
i had a terrible gastric pain man !
couldnt really eat though i guess, i was rather hungry.
haha.
i mean, i barely had any food during lunch with xinjin \ xinrong \ florence \ amy at kfc.
i had no appitite, you see.
too nervous ?
haha.
i dont knw..
and xinjin ! it aint your logic of the FOOD \ prey aint on my table so i cant eat.
haha.
just had some bismeg and i swear, it was fucking bitter !
gross.
and oh my !
haha.
my doggie just shitted in my sister's room !
oh my oh my !
think my doggie has gone mad these days !
he urinated in my room last night and now..
oh man !
how naughty he is !
my sister is fucking pissed !
woops !
anyway, back to it.
on the way home, listened to sun yan zi's album then it reminded me of jiahao.
haha.
cos he wna lend me the cd to listen just now, during the competition.
at first, i wna listen to my linkin park \ jayz - collision but fuck it !
i had FORGOTTEN to bring lah !
wth.
nvm, then i wna share with xinjin to listen and before tht, i was like - woah. now can act cool and sit here and blast music man. cool huh ?
haha.
disappointment cos no disc but at first, i thought had no battery.
DARN !
then, borrowed a cd from jiahao but nice, not batteries !
ahhhh !
so shit lah.
then xinjin said - it's the second time in the ear piece when there's no sound.
alright, sorry.
haha.
=/
anyhow, i guess, there's nothing more lah.
i shall decide whether to go or not.
well, i guess, in the end, i wont.
got to go already lah.
byebye.
(:
IDOL *
i munched ;
at 10:01 PM